New Beginnings

#ProudPost

I’m really nervous but also excited.

I’ve been stepping out of my comfort zone more and more recently, and this NYE I’ve taken a big step.

I have never been away from my parents as I transition into a New Year, and due to Aspergers I usually stick to my traditions and what I know.

However, this year, I’m going on the train on my own (scary thing 1), up to Orpington in the evening (scary thing 2), And am spending the night with some people I’ve recently met (scary thing 3)

Train tickets have been purchased, it is official.

Not only that, but one of the 3 people I’ll be with is someone who likes me, and who I’ve been gradually getting close to.... I haven’t gotten close to anyone in about 4 years since my ex, and I don’t actually know how I feel about this guy he kinda frazzles my brain! But I told him I’d like to try a platonic movie cuddling night with him.......

I haven’t cuddled up to anyone but my mum in 4 years..... I have explained to him that I might hate it and say no and been very clear about my boundaries, but he’s just been so understanding and respectful about every part of my mental health so far!

He’s even said he’ll help me stop bingeing and reach my ultimate goal weight because he knows it’ll make me happy! He’s just so..... accepting. And caring but without being overwhelming and overbearing.

So I will be starting 2018 off in a completely and utterly new way to how I’ve ever done it before.....!

And yknow what? I’m scared.

... but I’m pretty proud too!

A Good Run

Weight: 138.9

Well that was a good run.
Tuesday 5th - Fasted
Wednesday 6th - Fasted
Thursday 7th - 82kcal
Friday 8th - Fasted
Saturday 9th - Fasted
Sunday 10th - Fasted
Monday 11th - Fasted
Tuesday 12th - Fasted
Wednesday 13th - Fasted
Today - 270kcal

I have so much more control now, and as of tonight I am 32 days binge free!

I’ve decided to eat for a few days at least, 200-500 calories or less, as people at work are getting suspicious.

Sunday 3rd December 2017

Weight: Don’t know

I can’t weigh every day sadly, so tomorrow will be my next weigh in (I hope!)

I haven’t eaten more than 300 the past two days - today was only 64kcal and that was my calendar chocolates in the evening!

I’m really hoping that tomorrow I will be 150lb / 68kg because that’s my first goal! I’m planning to get my nails done as a reward once I reach it, so I really want that to be done in time for christmas!

I’m also super close to being out of the obese category - I THINK it’s 148lb / 67kg that I need to get to to be out of that category, so I’m super close!!

Also, 21 days binge free! 3 weeks! Which also means I’m halfway to Christmas, because that’ll be 42 days binge free!

fingers crossed for my weigh in tomorrow!

Fate Says No

Plans to order sushi
Plans to eat some food
Still under 1,000
Should be pretty good

Go onto the website
Type my postcode in
Look for sushi restaurant
For my din din din

Website says "Closed" for sushi
Guess I'll fast today
At least I'll lose some extra weight
Hooray, hip-hip-hooray!

Tuesday 28th November 2017

Weight: 154.4lb / 70kg

So I was going to do a max of 500 today but I felt VERY binge-y around lunch time, and rather than risk bingeing (There was bread and cheese in the house - major binge foods for me!), I decided to raise my limit to 1,000 and have a cheese sandwich for lunch.

The way I see it, it's my day off so I can spend a few hours on my bike if I want, and even if I don't I should still lose weight. Also, by having a cheese sandwich (with tomato sauce), I got to taste what I would have binged on!

I'm now on my 16th day binge free, and I can't remember if I said this already, but if I make it to Christmas without bingeing then I'm allowed to have Christmas Day as a "free day", which means no calorie counting and it means if I want to eat nearer 2,000 then I can.

I'm also now 154.4lb, which is a BMI of 31.1 and I am SO CLOSE to being out of the Obese BMI Category! Once I reach 148.4lb / 67.3kg I will be BMI 29.9 and will be OVERWEIGHT AND NOT OBESE.

I'm so close.

Saturday 25th November 2017

Weight: 155.5lb / 70.5kg

So I've been trying to eat a bit more "normally" this week (still under 1,000 a day though) because my ma was getting worried, and I don't like to worry her, even though she won't force me to do anything.

Also, work is kicking up. Retail work during Christmas time is pretty unforgiving, and I can't afford to be weak and sick over the Christmas period. So I'm trying to eat around 500-1000 a day instead of just not eating (which is what I really want to do).

Weight loss has slowed due to this, but I'm hoping I'll still continue to lose with this higher restriction.

Fingers crossed!

Later . . .
Oh my god I'm so close. 985kcal burned, I've been on my bike for like 4 hours now. I'm past my total for today (882), so I'm already on a negative net.

I want to be able to say I burned 1,000kcal.... I've never done that in one sitting before.... I'm so fucking tired and I haven't had any water all day so I'm so dehydrated but god I'm so close. I can barely type it's taking all my focus!!

995 now... FUCK IM SO CLOSE.
Legit typing this as I'm riding and watching the calorie count go up.
998... I can feel my heart
999..
FUCKING DID IT
1,000 FUCKING CALORIES OH MY GOD.
Took me like 4.5 hours but fucking hell I did it.
Fuck
I'm so tired.
I'm gonna go shower now.
I'm all gross and sweaty.
And then I'm gonna get water and go to bed.

I did it.

Sunday 19th November 2017

Weight: 156.6

Well, I skipped all meals and have had nothing but my Caramel Mocha today (79) and currently on my bike burning the last of that off so that I have a negative net balance.

I weighed with clothes on this morning so I expect I've actually dropped a little more, but oh well.

7 DAYS BINGE FREE WOO!

Plus, I got given a box of a dozen Krispy Kreme Doughnuts today, but have managed to pawn them off on my mother so she can take them to work tomorrow - No calories for me!

Nobody at work commented on my weight loss..... Guess I need to lose more before they'll notice. No problem, I have so much self control now.

I can do this.

Saturday 18th November 2017

Weight: 156.6lb

Lost another kilogram woo!

Changing it up a bit today, felt very "binge-y" so have decided to have 3 "meals" today. Had my Mocha (79) for breakfast, along with 10 cheeky jelly beans (41), and just finished up having 3 rice cakes (81) and 3 corn thins (69) for lunch.

This evening, if I even want it, I'm allowed some chicken noodle soup (128).

On my bike now, trying to get my net value down to zero again so I can still lose weight because I'm eating more today.

Friday, 17th November, 2017

Weight: 158.8

OH MY GOD I'M OUT OF THE 160's!!!!!
Man, I haven't been this low in about 3 years... This is amazing!

I've been on holiday from work since last Friday, and it's done such good; I genuinely think I've got the bingeing under control now!

My goal is to lose enough so that, when I go back to work this Sunday, my colleagues comment on my weight loss. That's my goal right now.

I'm doing so well not eating and skipping meals, and I always find that easier to do on days where I'm working rather than days where I'm not, so it's gonna be great when I go back to work! I have so much self control right now it's amazing.

Currently typing this while on my bike, just burning off my morning latte (69). I'm going by cals consumed right now, instead of Net, but even so I like knowing I have a zero net.

ALSO, one of my oldest friends contacted me and asked if I wanted to go walking with her for fitness this winter - HECK TO THE YESSS

Not only does walking burn calories, we'd be walking around in really nice places, plus being cold burns more calories than being warm, so that's a bonus of doing it in winter!

God damn, things are really looking up, I'm so freakin happy.

Cravings

The monster growls inside of me
Craving calories
The beast it hides beneath my bones
"Give me food!" it pleas

"Donuts! Pizza! Ice cream too!"
I shake my head in shame
"No," I say "We cannot see
our weight just stay the same!"

"Things will never change," I say,
"Until we fight the binge.
Beast you really test me so,
but I guarantee I'll win!"

The beast it growls in anger and
Sits inside it's cage
It has no control of me
But still I feel it's rage.

It paces back and forth inside
Urging me to eat
"I won't!" I cry, "I will not
give in to this defeat!"

And so I lose it, pound by pound
'Til happiness I find
I lose the weight, I win this war
And slowly lose my mind.

Madness

Madness. Madness!
It's madness they say
The desire for bones
Just won't go away

The desire to wither
The desire to fade
The desire to have
The future I made

The future I made
Inside of my head
A skeletal figure
Of me, nearly dead

Why must I have this
It's madness you see
It's madness to want this
Bones just for me

Don't get me wrong
Food is my life
In more ways than one
It's my ultimate strife

I eat just to eat
Not to fill a void
Then I starve just to starve
'Til body destroyed

Food is my love
My dearest obsession
The root of it all
My biggest depression

To eat or to not
That is the query
But whatever I choose
Is wrong. Do you see?

Thinner

Mocha in the morning

Seventy-nine

Nothing in the evening

Doing just fine

Latte the next morning

Sixty-nine

Nothing once again

I'm doing just fine

Nothing in the morning

I'm doing super fine

Nothing for the whole day

These bones are mine

Things Are Going Better

It's been forever since I blogged....

So, an update:

I had a massive period of bingeing, read the "Brain Over Binge" book, and now am turning my life around. I am on day 3 binge free, and I'm doing much better!

In other news, The Year Of Bones is all ready to go for 2018! I can't wait, the spreadsheets are all sorted, the workbooks and challenges are done, everything is prepared, all that's left is for me to stop bingeing.

I've added some thinspo onto my blog because why not (God I want to be as thin as Eugenia Cooney - if not thinner), and yeah fingers crossed that I've got my bingeing under control!

Why

I am so fucking done with my brain.

I'm meant to have started the Skinny Girl diet today and I fucking binged this morning on rice, meaning I've gone over the 400kcal limit for today. If I don't eat for the rest of the day then it's salvageable as I wouldn't be over 1,000 so I could still potentially lose A BIT of weight.

But dear god I want to drill a hole into my fucking brain, grab a vacuum and suck this faulty piece of shit muscle out of my body. I DONT WANT TO RESTRICT. Yes I want to lose weight but not like this. And I am FUCKING SICK of feeling guilty and disgusting every time I go over 500kcal for the day. That's just NOT OKAY.

And sure there'll be people telling me "oh then diet healthily! You can do this this and this to lose weight in a healthy way!" But THESE PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

For me there is no grey. There is only black and white. There is only everything or nothing. Steely Determination OR a "fuck it all" attitude. I have no middle.

I have TRIED. I have been on a 12 week healthy eating NHS course. All it did was trigger me into severely restricting my intake again.

I KNOW how to diet and how to change my lifestyle. I KNOW what needs to be done but I can't seem to do it, no matter how hard I try.

I'm a skinny person stuck in a fat body and it hurts. I just need to be me and me is NOT obese! And the only way I seem to be able to lose weight is in the bad way of barely eating!!

I'm so tempted. I found my stash of plasters the other day and god I just want to start cutting again. I miss it. Maybe it's a nostalgia thing, because back when I was cutting daily, I was so in control and I was so skinny. I want to be back at that time again.

And what's really annoying is no matter how hard I try to recover (self-recover because no medical professional will give me help for an eating disorder because I'm fucking obese and not half dead), I relapse again because my brain will NOT let go of my "ideal weight"..... I have never reached my Ultimate Goal Weight and I'm obsessed with the number. I honestly feel that I will never be able to fully recover until I've reached that stupid and dangerous weight.

It's nearly my birthday. Why can't I just enjoy life? Why do I have to diet and starve myself? Why do I have to want to kill myself every time I eat what my twisted mind refers to as "too much"?

I will get to my UGW next year, I know it because I've planned it.

But why can't I just enjoy THIS year?

I'm so.
Fucking.
Tired of this bullcrap.

I don't know what to do...

Like seriously, I'm so conflicted.

Part of me wants to lose weight for my birthday, but the other part of me wants to quit dieting until AFTER my birthday...

Bingeing on pizza and ice cream today, but then I don't know whether to start restricting again starting tomorrow, in order to lose some weight for my birthday.

On the one hand, if I lose weight for my birthday, then worst case scenario is that on my 4 day birthday bonanza I'll only gain back what I lost.

On the other hand, I seem to be pretty steady with my weight, even when I binge I don't seem to gain much more than 1-2kg which is mostly food and water weight, and I'm pretty sure regardless of how much I eat I tend to plateau at 80kg, so if I did say no to dieting until after my birthday, then it's not like I would gain an extra 20kg, and I naturally have days where I don't eat much anyway, especially after bingeing.

But back onto the first hand, if I do diet up to my birthday, it'll prepare me not only for dieting AFTER, but will also prepare me for my crazy "The Year Of Bones" diet for 2018.

BUT back onto the OTHER hand, my birthday weekend will finish on the 17th September, so I'll have more than 3 months to get back on track before TYOB starts on 1st January.

....
Things would be so much easier if I had a friend to actually support me through this, like someone I could use to escape from dinners and such, someone who could help me figure this plan out, someone to be like "Don't binge, you know it'll only make you upset, have some fruit instead or some fruit tea!" Like, I know I'll never find a friend who will tell me NOT to eat, but it'd be real nice to have someone to stop me eating TOO MUCH, yknow? Someone not necessarily to tell me to starve, but someone to say "look, you're being dumb, you wanna eat everything right now but afterwards you're just gonna hate yourself" things like "you've lost x amount so far, don't mess it up now, have something healthy and don't order Dominos."

God if I could have that, someone who understands they can't force me to eat MORE, but who can make sure that the actual THINGS I'm eating are actually valid and sustainable things, and not pizza and ice cream or shit like that, someone to actually be like "I want you to eat more but I don't want you to binge and get upset, so just have something healthy or small"

Ugh I'm just kind of splurging brain juice out here, but that'd be cool, to have that someone. And omg it'd be even better to have a friend like "DUDE I know you're not eating more than x calories a day right now so I found this meal/recipe/snack/drink that's only x calories each/per serving/per 100ml/etc!!"

Cause lord knows I'm shit. I just find something and eat the same things over and over. Like when I was restricting before, I literally lived on rice cakes (29), crispbreads (19) and blueberries (2) because I knew all the calories and knew it wasn't much.

I don't cook at all, because I just don't know how to make something filling and yummy for less than like 200-300kcal, and all the super low cal recipes I DO find use crazy ingredients like Konjac Flour and american stuff.....

*sigh* Not sure what to do tomorrow.... continue to eat or restrict? I just don't know anymore.

Plans ft. A Brain Splurge

I have a plan, but I don't know how well it can work.

I plan to lose as much weight as possible before my birthday weekend this year, and then have 2-3 days of eating whatever I want (within reason; for example I can have whatever food I want, but I am not allowed to eat until I feel physically uncomfortable, which is what usually happens). I know I will gain, but I'm hoping that because I would have lost a significant amount, I'll only gain like 4 or 5 pounds over the weekend. Any more than that and it'll probably be food weight rather than actual weight.

After which, I will return to my restrictive eating, lose that small amount of excess weight, and continue to lose up until the end of the year.

At the end of the year, I will then be starting my Year Of Bones diet for 2018, and aim to reach my Ultimate Goal Weight of 70lb by the end of next year.

I don't know how well this will work, bingeing is always possible, but I'm not gonna let slip ups like that stop me.

I feel as though, once I've finally reached 70lb, I will finally be able to give up these behaviours and recover fully, because I would have finally achieved my goal.
Don't get me wrong, I'd love to give them up now, but I know I would only return to these behaviours, again and again, until I reached my goal.

A friend recently found this blog and my ED/Mental Health alias, and I'm kind of glad they did in a way.... because it means someone is keeping an eye on me. I just hope they understand that they can't stop me, and the best thing for them to do is be supportive, and allow me to talk freely. Because that is what I need, I need friends who, like my mum, know they can't change my mind but who will be there when I need them, and who will be someone I can joke to, saying things like "well I'm not eating so at least the food bill's low!"

Humour is such a big help when it comes to mental health, so many people don't realise this. To be able to joke freely about one's problems is, in my opinion, one of the most relaxing and comforting things. To be able to joke to your friends about your curses and demons, and for them to laugh along with you, that is truly a thing to be savoured.

I am proud to say that, with the addition of this friend's discovery, I now think I have 3 people I can do this with. 3 people who will support and love me no matter what.

And that, my fellow humanoids, is a gift.

Improvements

I didn't lose my job, woo! Got a first written warning though, which means I have to be on my best behaviour for 12 months, and I'm not entitled to the yearly bonus but oh well.

Things are a lot better at home now that my stepdad is gone, mum seems to be managing okay for now, and I get to spend more time downstairs.

Still barely eating, had 13kcal in total yesterday!! And haven't had anything so far today. The day before I also barely had anything - think I had like 11kcal?

Still staying under 170lb which is great, I'm 163.2lb / 74kg at the moment.

I've got this app that was recommended by someone in my ED chat group, called "My Weight" and it's super cool! You set your goal and it measures your progress, as well as telling you how many calories per day you can eat maximum in order to reach your goal by your designated time. I've still got just under 100lb to lose to get there, but I've set my goal date for the end of 2018, so plenty of time!

Hopefully seeing an old friend today which'll be good, then working tomorrow, then I have the weekend off, which should be good.

So yeah, that's just an update of what's happening.

Things Aren't Okay

1. Lost a close friend of 10 years
2. Parents are splitting up
3. Stepdad moved out
4. Might lose my job

at least all of these things mean I don't feel like eating....

Haven't eaten proper solid food in almost 10 days, so that's somewhat good I guess.

Change of Plans

My ma is gonna tell my stepdad to leave.... Money will be tight, and my ma will not have her partner of 17 years.

Because of this, I have made the decision to cancel my ABC diet attempt and raise my usual daily limit of 500kcal to 1000kcal, so as to still lose weight, but not risk getting ill and causing my mother even more stress and worry.

She doesn't deserve this.

Confessions

I told my ma I'm on a diet.

So, now she knows. But I mean she's known for a while now.

I had to tell her. Anything so as not to eat that lasagne...

Numbers Nightmare

So my stepdad was going to make Lasagne today. I love his Lasagne, it's the only one I'll actually eat, and it tastes incredible.

Well, as I have a calorie limit now due to the ABC diet, I thought hey, let's work out the calories....

Oh god.

Ragu
3 tbsp Olive Oil	357
3 tbsp Butter	306
2 Large Onions	120
4 Celery Sticks	24
175g Diced Bacon	729.75
2 Garlic Cloves	10
500g Minced Beef	1660
2 tbsp Tomato Puree	12
1 tbsp Plain Flour	28
400g Chopped Tomatoes Can	128
150ml Beef Stock	400.5
150ml Red Wine	128.4
2 tsp Dried Oregano	10
1/2 tsp Grated Nutmeg	5.5
Salt and Pepper	0
TOTAL	3919.15
Lasagne
1 tbsp olive oil	119
250g Lasagne Verde	865
50g Parmesan Cheese	215.5
Salt and Pepper	0
Grated Cheese	402
Mushrooms	22
Carrots	41
+ Bechamel	1116
+ Ragu	3919.15
TOTAL	6699.65
Bechamel Sauce
300ml Milk (semi skimmed)	141
2 Bay Leaves	6
3 Cloves	12
1 Small Onion	28
50g butter	358
6 tbsp plain flour	168
300ml single cream	399
pinch of nutmeg	4
salt and pepper	0
TOTAL	1116

IT'S LIKE 6700kcal FOR THE WHOLE FRIKKIN THING. And what's even worse is I normally eat 1/4 of it...

1/16	1/8	1/4	1/2
418.728125	837.45625	1674.9125	3349.825

WITHOUT KNOWING, EVERY TIME I HAVE THIS LASAGNE I'M EATING 1675kcal!!!! What the actual fuck.

I am sickened.

I told my ma I was going out with a friend tonight (I'm not, I'm just gonna go to a café and do some drawing), but I'm worried they'll be like "Oh we'll just make it tomorrow".....

I am NOT eating that disgusting mess of calories.

TYOB - 2018

DATE	DIET	Rule	My Total	Did I Exercise?	Day Success?	Weight
Mon 1 January	-	FAST
Tue 2 January	-	FAST
Wed 3 January	Ana In Training	850
Thu 4 January	Ana In Training	800
Fri 5 January	Ana In Training	750
Sat 6 January	Ana In Training	700
Sun 7 January	Ana In Training	750
Mon 8 January	Ana In Training	800
Tue 9 January	Ana In Training	850
Wed 10 January	Ana In Training	750
Thu 11 January	Ana In Training	700
Fri 12 January	Ana In Training	650
Sat 13 January	Ana In Training	600
Sun 14 January	Ana In Training	650
Mon 15 January	Ana In Training	700
Tue 16 January	Ana In Training	750
Wed 17 January	Ana In Training	650
Thu 18 January	Ana In Training	600
Fri 19 January	Ana In Training	550
Sat 20 January	Ana In Training	500
Sun 21 January	Ana In Training	550
Mon 22 January	Ana In Training	600
Tue 23 January	Ana In Training	650
Wed 24 January	Ana In Training	550
Thu 25 January	Ana In Training	500
Fri 26 January	Ana In Training	450
Sat 27 January	Ana In Training	400
Sun 28 January	Ana In Training	450
Mon 29 January	Ana In Training	500
Tue 30 January	Ana In Training	550
Wed 31 January	Ana Boot Camp	<500
Thu 1 February	Ana Boot Camp	<500
Fri 2 February	Ana Boot Camp	300
Sat 3 February	Ana Boot Camp	400
Sun 4 February	Ana Boot Camp	100
Mon 5 February	Ana Boot Camp	200
Tue 6 February	Ana Boot Camp	300
Wed 7 February	Ana Boot Camp	400
Thu 8 February	Ana Boot Camp	500
Fri 9 February	Ana Boot Camp	FAST
Sat 10 February	Ana Boot Camp	150
Sun 11 February	Ana Boot Camp	200
Mon 12 February	Ana Boot Camp	400
Tue 13 February	Ana Boot Camp	350
Wed 14 February	Ana Boot Camp	250
Thu 15 February	Ana Boot Camp	200
Fri 16 February	Ana Boot Camp	FAST
Sat 17 February	Ana Boot Camp	200
Sun 18 February	Ana Boot Camp	100
Mon 19 February	Ana Boot Camp	FAST
Tue 20 February	Ana Boot Camp	300
Wed 21 February	Ana Boot Camp	250
Thu 22 February	Ana Boot Camp	200
Fri 23 February	Ana Boot Camp	150
Sat 24 February	Ana Boot Camp	100
Sun 25 February	Ana Boot Camp	50
Mon 26 February	Ana Boot Camp	100
Tue 27 February	Ana Boot Camp	200
Wed 28 February	Ana Boot Camp	200
Thu 1 March	Ana Boot Camp	300
Fri 2 March	Ana Boot Camp	800
Sat 3 March	Ana Boot Camp	FAST
Sun 4 March	Ana Boot Camp	250
Mon 5 March	Ana Boot Camp	350
Tue 6 March	Ana Boot Camp	450
Wed 7 March	Ana Boot Camp	FAST
Thu 8 March	Ana Boot Camp	500
Fri 9 March	Ana Boot Camp	450
Sat 10 March	Ana Boot Camp	400
Sun 11 March	Ana Boot Camp	350
Mon 12 March	Ana Boot Camp	300
Tue 13 March	Ana Boot Camp	250
Wed 14 March	Ana Boot Camp	200
Thu 15 March	Ana Boot Camp	200
Fri 16 March	Ana Boot Camp	250
Sat 17 March	Ana Boot Camp	200
Sun 18 March	Ana Boot Camp	300
Mon 19 March	Ana Boot Camp	200
Tue 20 March	Ana Boot Camp	150
Wed 21 March	Ana Boot Camp	Fast
Thu 22 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Fri 23 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	150
Sat 24 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Sun 25 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	250
Mon 26 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Tue 27 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	300
Wed 28 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	300
Thu 29 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Fri 30 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	150
Sat 31 March	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Sun 1 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Mon 2 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	250
Tue 3 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Wed 4 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	300
Thu 5 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	400
Fri 6 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Sat 7 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	150
Sun 8 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Mon 9 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Tue 10 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	250
Wed 11 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	300
Thu 12 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	350
Fri 13 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Sat 14 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	150
Sun 15 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Mon 16 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	250
Tue 17 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Wed 18 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	300
Thu 19 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	350
Fri 20 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	200
Sat 21 April	Crazy Skinny Girl	FAST
Sun 22 April	2468	200
Mon 23 April	2468	400
Tue 24 April	2468	600
Wed 25 April	2468	800
Thu 26 April	2468	FAST
Fri 27 April	2468	200
Sat 28 April	2468	400
Sun 29 April	2468	600
Mon 30 April	2468	800
Tue 1 May	2468	FAST
Wed 2 May	Black & White	500
Thu 3 May	Black & White	450
Fri 4 May	Black & White	500
Sat 5 May	Black & White	400
Sun 6 May	Black & White	500
Mon 7 May	Black & White	350
Tue 8 May	Black & White	450
Thu 9 May	Black & White	350
Thu 10 May	Black & White	150
Fri 11 May	Black & White	350
Sat 12 May	Black & White	400
Sun 13 May	Black & White	350
Mon 14 May	Black & White	400
Tue 15 May	Black & White	300
Wed 16 May	Black & White	400
Thu 17 May	Black & White	300
Fri 18 May	Black & White	350
Sat 19 May	Black & White	400
Sun 20 May	Black & White	250
Mon 21 May	Black & White	350
Tue 22 May	Black & White	250
Wed 23 May	Black & White	400
Thu 24 May	Black & White	350
Fri 25 May	Black & White	200
Sat 26 May	Black & White	300
Sun 27 May	Black & White	350
Mon 28 May	Black & White	250
Tue 29 May	Black & White	300
Wed 30 May	Black & White	200
Thu 31 May	Black & White	500
Fri 1 June	Black & White	200
Sat 2 June	Black & White	250
Sun 3 June	Black & White	150
Mon 4 June	Black & White	300
Tue 5 June	Black & White	300
Wed 6 June	Black & White	400
Thu 7 June	Black & White	200
Fri 8 June	Black & White	150
Sat 9 June	Black & White	300
Sun 10 June	Black & White	200
Mon 11 June	Black & White	200
Tue 12 June	Black & White	150
Wed 13 June	Black & White	300
Thu 14 June	Black & White	200
Fri 15 June	Black & White	400
Sat 16 June	Black & White	200
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Tue 19 June	Black & White	200
Wed 20 June	Black & White	400
Thu 21 June	Black & White	300
Fri 22 June	Black & White	400
Sat 23 June	Black & White	500
Sun 24 June	Black & White	400
Mon 25 June	Black & White	100
Tue 26 June	Black & White	300
Wed 27 June	Black & White	400
Thu 28 June	Black & White	200
Fri 29 June	Black & White	300
Sat 30 June	Black & White	500
Sun 1 July	Black & White	FAST
Mon 2 July	Black & White	FAST
Tue 3 July	Giovanni’s 30	500
Wed 4 July	Giovanni’s 30	500
Thu 5 July	Giovanni’s 30	300
Fri 6 July	Giovanni’s 30	400
Sat 7 July	Giovanni’s 30	100
Sun 8 July	Giovanni’s 30	200
Mon 9 July	Giovanni’s 30	300
Tue 10 July	Giovanni’s 30	400
Wed 11 July	Giovanni’s 30	500
Thu 12 July	Giovanni’s 30	FAST
Fri 13 July	Giovanni’s 30	150
Sat 14 July	Giovanni’s 30	200
Sun 15 July	Giovanni’s 30	400
Mon 16 July	Giovanni’s 30	Apples Only
Tue 17 July	Giovanni’s 30	Apples Only
Wed 18 July	Giovanni’s 30	Apples + 2tbsp Olive Oil in evening
Thu 19 July	Giovanni’s 30	FAST
Fri 20 July	Giovanni’s 30	200
Sat 21 July	Giovanni’s 30	100
Sun 22 July	Giovanni’s 30	FAST
Mon 23 July	Giovanni’s 30	300
Tue 24 July	Giovanni’s 30	250
Wed 25 July	Giovanni’s 30	200
Thu 26 July	Giovanni’s 30	150
Fri 27 July	Giovanni’s 30	100
Sat 28 July	Giovanni’s 30	500
Sun 29 July	Giovanni’s 30	100
Mon 30 July	Giovanni’s 30	200
Tue 31 July	Giovanni’s 30	800
Wed 1 August	Giovanni’s 30	FAST
Thu 2 August	Milk Diet	Day 1
Fri 3 August	Milk Diet	Day 2
Sat 4 August	Milk Diet	Day 3
Sun 5 August	Milk Diet	Day 4
Mon 6 August	Milk Diet	Day 5
Tue 7 August	Milk Diet	Day 6
Wed 8 August	Milk Diet	Day 7
Thu 9 August	Milk Diet	Day 8
Fri 10 August	Milk Diet	FAST
Sat 11 August	2468	200
Sun 12 August	2468	400
Mon 13 August	2468	600
Tue 14 August	2468	800
Wed 15 August	2468	FAST
Thu 16 August	3-A-Day	Day 1
Fri 17 August	3-A-Day	Day 2
Sat 18 August	3-A-Day	Day 3
Sun 19 August	2468	200
Mon 20 August	2468	400
Tue 21 August	2468	600
Wed 22 August	2468	800
Thu 23 August	2468	FAST
Fri 24 August	Top Model	600
Sat 25 August	Top Model	800
Sun 26 August	Top Model	500
Mon 27 August	Top Model	800
Tue 28 August	Top Model	400
Wed 29 August	Top Model	800
Thu 30 August	Top Model	Detox Fast
Fri 31 August	Model Diet	One Day Only
Sat 1 September	-	FAST
Sun 2 September	LTD	1000
Mon 3 September	LTD	800
Tue 4 September	LTD	600
Wed 5 September	LTD	400
Thu 6 September	LTD	100
Fri 7 September	LTD	800
Sat 8 September	LTD	600
Sun 9 September	LTD	400
Mon 10 September	LTD	100
Tue 11 September	LTD	800
Wed 12 September	LTD	600
Thu 13 September	LTD	400
Fri 14 September	LTD	FAST
Sat 15 September	LTD	Free Day
Sun 16 September	LTD	FAST
Mon 17 September	LTD	100
Tue 18 September	LTD	800
Wed 19 September	LTD	600
Thu 20 September	LTD	400
Fri 21 September	LTD	100
Sat 22 September	LTD	800
Sun 23 September	LTD	600
Mon 24 September	LTD	400
Tue 25 September	LTD	100
Wed 26 September	LTD	800
Thu 27 September	LTD	600
Fri 28 September	LTD	400
Sat 29 September	LTD	FAST
Sun 30 September	LTD	Free Day
Mon 1 October	LTD	FAST
Tue 2 October	Rainbow Diet	Day 1
Wed 3 October	Rainbow Diet	Day 2
Thu 4 October	Rainbow Diet	Day 3
Fri 5 October	Rainbow Diet	Day 4
Sat 6 October	Rainbow Diet	Day 5
Sun 7 October	Rainbow Diet	Day 6
Mon 8 October	Rainbow Diet	Day 7
Tue 9 October	Fruit Smoothie	Day 1
Wed 10 October	Fruit Smoothie	Day 2
Thu 11 October	Fruit Smoothie	Day 3
Fri 12 October	Fruit Smoothie	Day 4
Sat 13 October	Fruit Smoothie	Day 5
Sun 14 October	Fruit Smoothie	Day 6
Mon 15 October	Fruit Smoothie	Day 7
Tue 16 October	Ban-Ana	One Day Only
Wed 17 October	Sweet Tiny Body	FAST
Thu 18 October	Sweet Tiny Body	250g Raspberries )(135)
Fri 19 October	Sweet Tiny Body	250g Raspberries )(135)
Sat 20 October	Sweet Tiny Body	FAST
Sun 21 October	Sweet Tiny Body	250g Raspberries )(135)
Mon 22 October	Sweet Tiny Body	250g Raspberries )(135)
Tue 23 October	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Wed 24 October	Sweet Tiny Body	FAST
Thu 25 October	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Fri 26 October	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Sat 27 October	Sweet Tiny Body	FAST
Sun 28 October	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Mon 29 October	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Tue 30 October	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Wed 31 October	Sweet Tiny Body	FAST
Thu 1 November	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Fri 2 November	Sweet Tiny Body	125g Mango (74)
Sat 3 November	Sweet Tiny Body	FAST
Sun 4 November	Skinny Pink	500
Mon 5 November	Skinny Pink	500
Tue 6 November	Skinny Pink	450
Wed 7 November	Skinny Pink	450
Thu 8 November	Skinny Pink	400
Fri 9 November	Skinny Pink	500
Sat 10 November	Skinny Pink	400
Sun 11 November	Skinny Pink	450
Mon 12 November	Skinny Pink	350
Tue 13 November	Skinny Pink	500
Wed 14 November	Skinny Pink	350
Thu 15 November	Skinny Pink	450
Fri 16 November	Skinny Pink	400
Sat 17 November	Skinny Pink	350
Sun 18 November	Skinny Pink	400
Mon 19 November	Skinny Pink	500
Tue 20 November	Skinny Pink	600
Wed 21 November	Skinny Pink	500
Thu 22 November	Skinny Pink	750
Fri 23 November	Skinny Pink	500
Sat 24 November	Skinny Pink	400
Sun 25 November	Skinny Pink	500
Mon 26 November	Skinny Pink	600
Tue 27 November	Skinny Pink	500
Wed 28 November	Skinny Pink	600
Thu 29 November	Skinny Pink	600
Fri 30 November	Skinny Pink	600
Sat 1 December	Skinny Pink	500
Sun 2 December	Skinny Pink	600
Mon 3 December	Skinny Pink	600
Tue 4 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Wed 5 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Thu 6 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Fri 7 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Sat 8 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Sun 9 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Mon 10 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Tue 11 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Wed 12 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Thu 13 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Fri 14 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Sat 15 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Sun 16 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Mon 17 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Tue 18 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Wed 19 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Thu 20 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Fri 21 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Sat 22 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Sun 23 December	Fairy Diet	See Booklet
Mon 24 December	Caroline Kettlewell	One Day Only
Tue 25 December	-	Free Day
Wed 26 December	2468	200
Thu 27 December	2468	400
Fri 28 December	2468	600
Sat 29 December	2468	800
Sun 30 December	2468	FAST
Mon 31 December	-	FAST