New Beginnings

#ProudPost

I’m really nervous but also excited.

I’ve been stepping out of my comfort zone more and more recently, and this NYE I’ve taken a big step.

I have never been away from my parents as I transition into a New Year, and due to Aspergers I usually stick to my traditions and what I know.

However, this year, I’m going on the train on my own (scary thing 1), up to Orpington in the evening (scary thing 2), And am spending the night with some people I’ve recently met (scary thing 3)

Train tickets have been purchased, it is official.

Not only that, but one of the 3 people I’ll be with is someone who likes me, and who I’ve been gradually getting close to.... I haven’t gotten close to anyone in about 4 years since my ex, and I don’t actually know how I feel about this guy he kinda frazzles my brain! But I told him I’d like to try a platonic movie cuddling night with him.......

I haven’t cuddled up to anyone but my mum in 4 years..... I have explained to him that I might hate it and say no and been very clear about my boundaries, but he’s just been so understanding and respectful about every part of my mental health so far!

He’s even said he’ll help me stop bingeing and reach my ultimate goal weight because he knows it’ll make me happy! He’s just so..... accepting. And caring but without being overwhelming and overbearing.

So I will be starting 2018 off in a completely and utterly new way to how I’ve ever done it before.....!

And yknow what? I’m scared.

... but I’m pretty proud too!