No, I'm not gonna sit here and say "I'm gonna kill myself" I just...
I barely sleep anymore, I haven't for a while. Nor do I eat properly. I'm either in bed or at work, there is no in between. At work I feel like I can stay cheerful and happy and I almost manage to trick myself into feeling like things are okay.
But even at work now, my one escape from reality, I just feel... Idk.
Everything feels meaningless. I can't hold a conversation with someone so much so that one of the only 3 people who occasionally socialises with me told me to sod off cause I keep using one word replies... I don't know what to say. I don't even feel like trying anymore.
It's not that I want to die, no. I'm not suicidal okay so don't panic, nobody needs that kind of shit on here or anywhere else.
I just don't want to exist. I don't want to BE, yknow?
Idk why I made this, just.... What's the point? I try so hard to be happy and upbeat but really what's the point? I'm not even alive. At least I don't feel like I am. I don't feel like I'm living.
Everything feels like a dream and I want to wake up.
Sorry.
About clogging up the Internet
With this
I just
Idk
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